Today is May 1st, and to be honest getting through the month of April has made me feel like I can do absolutely anything. I know I always start my posts by saying that me being busy is an understatement, but I have recently learned that “busy” is just a sad word to say that I have been taking advantage of every single moment.
I love being busy. I love being on the go. I love taking advantage of every single day. And even though I feel like I haven’t had “a break” since February, I’ve had so many beautiful experiences in the meantime, and have been surrounded by so much love. Here’s a few moments that I took advantage of and captured from this crazy month:
Celebrating our beautiful angel, Ashley, with my work family.Hiking those beautiful red rocks with our best friends.Practicing yoga in my backyard, and cuddling way too often with Harvey
Being crazy hooligans with my favorites, including my sissyOur first swim day of the year at Grandma’sThe prettiest work sunset Visits from Kenzie from San Francisco Coffee date with Marie
Visits from Auston from Salt Lake
Loving on and saying goodbye to my favorite girls
Double date with my sissy and Tyler
I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve consciously taken advantage of the time I have left before we leave the country again, but I’ve learned that when I am “busy” time slows down…
Each day felt like a whole week, and the month of April felt like a whole year. It was filled with so many emotions, temporary and final goodbyes, growing pains, life lessons, and so many little moments that made me feel thankful to be living. I took advantage of every single one of them, and every single emotion and feeling that came with them.
A no sleep, beautiful night in Vegas with my Derek
Crying and dancing not once, but twice to my favorite band, The 1975Celebrating Derek’s birthday at dinner with our DurstelersShowering these two beautiful mamas, super model best friends of mine (both of those bellies will be babies next time I see them!)
Pulling off a 400 people Easter brunch (and a handful of more events) at workVisits from mom from Arizona (I hadn’t slept in 3 days in this photo)Game night/ going away party with my work famLeaving town again to celebrate this girl’s birthdayAnd so many more, that I didn’t remind myself to capture
I know I’ll look back on April 2019 of being one of the busiest, hardest, but most beautiful months of my life. I’ll remember it as the time that I learned that “busy” doesn’t always mean something bad. Sometimes being “busy” just means that you are living your life to the absolute fullest and taking advantage of every single minute with the people you love, the places you’ll miss, and the feelings you want to hold onto forever.
We leave to the Dominican Republic in just a few days, and even though
I CAN NOT WAIT
to “have a break”, live on the beach, and spend every single minute with my Derek, I can’t help but feel so proud of the things I have accomplished in the last few weeks. I am proud of myself for looking at my to do lists and thinking “I am going to miss this” instead of “I am so stressed out”. For still working 50 hour work weeks, because I know how much I’ll miss the job that I worked so hard to get and the people who come with it. For giving up sleep to cuddle Harvey a little longer, and taking advantage of my good internet, bath tub, air conditioner, and washing machine. For giving up my alone time to spend time with the large amount of people I want to see and hug before I leave, and constantly thinking “I am so lucky to have so many people who fill my heart”. And the most important, for allowing myself to feel every single emotion, instead of blocking them out.
I know that change is always good, but I am also very aware that it means new chapters, new self growth, and changes in relationships. I know from past experience that things will be much different when we come back home, and this month has taught me that that is okay. It taught me that emotions, busy-ness, anxiety, stress, tears, love, happiness highs, and missing moments before they’re gone, are all a part of being human and living. And if you read my previous post, you know that I think, there is nothing wrong with LIVING.
Onto the next adventure, Wren