Goodbye to this chapter, and A very “busy” April.

IMG_4758Today is May 1st, and to be honest getting through the month of April has made me feel like I can do absolutely anything. I know I always start my posts by saying that me being busy is an understatement, but I have recently learned that “busy” is just a sad word to say that I have been taking advantage of every single moment.

I love being busy. I love being on the go. I love taking advantage of every single day. And even though I feel like I haven’t had “a break” since February, I’ve had so many beautiful experiences in the meantime, and have been surrounded by so much love. Here’s a few moments that I took advantage of and captured from this crazy month:

Celebrating our beautiful angel, Ashley, with my work family.IMG_3944.JPGHiking those beautiful red rocks with our best friends.IMG_4757Practicing yoga in my backyard, and cuddling way too often with Harvey

IMG_4741Being crazy hooligans with my favorites, including my sissyIMG_4755Our first swim day of the year at Grandma’sIMG_4122.JPGThe prettiest work sunset IMG_4193.JPGVisits from Kenzie from San Francisco IMG_4761.JPGCoffee date with MarieIMG_4754

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Loving on and saying goodbye to my favorite girls
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I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve consciously taken advantage of the time I have left before we leave the country again, but I’ve learned that when I am “busy” time slows down…

A LOT.

Each day felt like a whole week, and the month of April felt like a whole year. It was filled with so many emotions, temporary and final goodbyes, growing pains, life lessons, and so many little moments that made me feel thankful to be living. I took advantage of every single one of them, and every single emotion and feeling that came with them.

A no sleep, beautiful night in Vegas with my Derek

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Crying and dancing not once, but twice to my favorite band, The 1975IMG_4753Celebrating Derek’s birthday at dinner with our DurstelersIMG_4749.JPGShowering these two beautiful mamas, super model best friends of mine (both of those bellies will be babies next time I see them!)

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Pulling off a 400 people Easter brunch (and a handful of more events) at workIMG_4748.JPGVisits from mom from Arizona (I hadn’t slept in 3 days in this photo)IMG_4583.JPGGame night/ going away party with my work famIMG_4747.JPGLeaving town again to celebrate this girl’s birthdayIMG_4729And so many more, that I didn’t remind myself to capture

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IMG_4746.JPGI know I’ll look back on April 2019 of being one of the busiest, hardest, but most beautiful months of my life. I’ll remember it as the time that I learned that “busy” doesn’t always mean something bad. Sometimes  being “busy” just means that you are living your life to the absolute fullest and taking advantage of every single minute with the people you love, the places you’ll miss, and the feelings you want to hold onto forever.

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I CAN NOT WAIT

to “have a break”, live on the beach, and spend every single minute with my Derek, I can’t help but feel so proud of the things I have accomplished in the last few weeks. I am proud of myself for looking at my to do lists and thinking “I am going to miss this” instead of “I am so stressed out”. For still working 50 hour work weeks, because I know how much I’ll miss the job that I worked so hard to get and the people who come with it. For giving up sleep to cuddle Harvey a little longer,  and taking advantage of my good internet, bath tub, air conditioner, and washing machine. For giving up my alone time to spend time with the large amount of people I want to see and hug before I leave, and constantly thinking “I am so lucky to have so many people who fill my heart”. And the most important, for allowing myself to feel every single emotion, instead of blocking them out.

I know that change is always good, but I am also very aware that it means new chapters, new self growth, and changes in relationships. I know from past experience that things will be much different when we come back home, and this month has taught me that that is okay.  It taught me that emotions, busy-ness, anxiety, stress, tears, love, happiness highs, and missing moments before they’re gone, are all a part of being human and living. And if you read my previous post, you know that I think, there is nothing wrong with LIVING. 

Onto the next adventure, Wren

 

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Using your Limited Time to Live Your Freaking Life

IMG_3985.JPGIn the light of recent events, I’ve been paying more attention to time. Time has always been something I’ve been observant of, but for some unknown reason, I’ve felt more thankful for the subtle reminders lately that our time here is limited and that it all eventually comes to an end. The time spent with the people we meet, and love. The time we spend in the places we go or call home, the certain little moments that we want to hold onto forever, it’s all limited. And it will all eventually come to an end.IMG_3984.JPGYou may be thinking to yourself “wow Wren, now I am depressed, thanks for the reminder.” But it’s the truth. And the thought that we’re not here forever shouldn’t make you depressed, it should make you want to live. All too often I hear these lines, and lately I’ve paid way more attention to them:

  • “I’ll do that one day.”
  • “I’ll be happy when… I lose the weight, I find true love, get a better job, move away.”
  • “I wish I could do that.”
  • “I am jealous of their life.”
  • “If only things were as easy as that.”

Do you know what I think when I hear these? Unhealthy mind sets, excuses, and future regrets. I know that things come easier to some people than others and it’s a natural reaction to feel jealousy, compare, and wish for different life experiences especially in this time in society.

It’s also a natural reaction to make excuses as to why you’re not doing the things you want to do with your limited time, but I’ve learned over the years that even though they’re easier, excuses are just blocks to living our best lives and taking advantage of our time here. If you really want to accomplish something, you’ll stop putting it on the back burner and do it. No matter how difficult it is, how crazy it sounds to others, how much sense it doesn’t make, or how the timing might not feel just right.

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I personally think humans make excuses because we can’t comprehend how it will feel when our time runs out. We think we will always have the weekend, the summer, the next year, the “one days.” Until it runs out and we don’t have any more time to accomplish the things we once promised ourselves that we would do. 56622488_2078565578863187_5963440933763547136_nCan you imagine how different your perspective would change if you knew for a fact that you only had 5 more years to live and that the count down started today?

You would quit your job that you hate. You would go do the things that you always wanted to do and see the places you always wanted to see, no matter how much money or uncomfortable situations it took. You would tell everyone how you felt about them, because why does it matter if they feel the same way back? You would capture more moments; write them down, photograph them, record them, so that your life and your moments would be remembered when you were gone.

You wouldn’t care about the way you looked, or the way you did things. You wouldn’t try to impress anyone and be unapologetic-ally yourself.  You probably wouldn’t care that your food order was wrong or that someone pulled in front of you while driving, or that a certain person ignored your text or phone call. You would begin to care more about making each day better than the last, and not let the little inconveniences upset you. You would absorb the moments that make your heart sing and surround yourself with the people and things that make you feel complete. You would take in all of the beauty of the world because you would constantly be aware of how much time you have left to enjoy it all.IMG_4124Your whole perspective would change, and that is the point I am trying to make.

I don’t mean to depress you, or rush you to spend the money that you don’t have on that plane ticket, or make you think “wow, what the hell am I currently doing with my life?” But all I’ve seen lately is time passing… excuses, wishful thinking, and not a whole lot of living. I hope that this post is a simple reminder that your time with a person, your time in a place, your time here on Earth… it’s all limited and I think we should all take advantage of these beautiful lives we are lucky to live.

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So, if you want to start living, start small. Tell people how you feel, how much you love and care for them.. even if they don’t care to hear it or don’t say it back. Visit the places you’ve always wanted to see, not for the Instagram photo, but for the sake of fulfilling your dreams. Study hard in college because you want that education, not to impress your parents or your friends. Sing really loud with your windows down, jump into the swimming pool, dance like a fool, crowd surf, get the tattoo. Do everything you’ve always wanted to do, and be everything you always wanted to be., all for the sake of feeling alive. Fulfill yourself and your life as if all of your time is limited, and remind yourself when you need to, that it is.

Onto the next adventure, (with my favorite quote lately ) Wren
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A Farewell to my Early 20’s

Whenever I hear an older person talk about their best time of their life, it is most of the time “without a doubt, their 20s.”  In our 20s, we’re young, we’re allowed to be selfish, we’re usually in the best shape of our life. We are learning who we are and what we want, and how we want to live out the rest of our lives. The world seems like a whole new place filled with new memories, experiences, close relationships, and celebrations. So it’s no question, why this is usually the answer.

I remember finally turning 20 years old and thinking to myself, I am going to make these next 10 years the best years of my entire life, and live every day like it is something to be celebrated. I learned to subconsciously teach myself that these are my “good old days” and that one day, I too, will be a much older person, talking about how great my 20s once were.

Now that I’ve officially reached the age of 25 (birthday blog post coming soon) and am the middle of this wonderful decade of my life, I understand what all of those people were talking about and why our 20s are usually “our best days”.

Here’s a little nostalgic farewell to my early 20s, with photos from my birthdays. (you know for me to look back on):

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20 years old:

  • I traveled out of state alone for the first time without family, just with Derek.
  • I became friends with so many great people, who would eventually feel like family. (shout out to our continuing friendship!)
  • Derek got down on one knee and asked me to spend the rest of my life with him.

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21 years old:

  • After 6 years, I finally made it official, had my dream wedding, and became Derek’s wife.
  • I found a lot of new passions such as teaching, yoga, and event planning.
  • Derek and I traveled out of country for our first time together.

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22 years old:

  • Derek and I bought our first house, and renovated it for 3 months.
  • We adopted our Harvey boy, and became dog parents.
  • We took a 10 day road trip, and I fell in love with the Pacific Northwest.

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23 years old:

  • Derek and I moved to the other side of the world for a semester, and crossed off two more countries together.
  • I rode on a total of 16 airplanes, and fell in love with this world.
  • I put my focus on accepting the person I was, and thought a lot about who I wanted to become.

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24 years old:

  • I spent a week in my fifth country with some of my favorite people.
  • I got promoted at work, to my dream position, as an event coordinator.
  • I had a lot of growing pains, and struggled with mental health issues, but became genuinely happy, and found self love.

Every year seems to get better than the last. Obviously, this isn’t the case for everyone, but I do believe that the last 5 years of my life wouldn’t have been as great as they were, without the mind set I’ve taught myself to have. I’ve said yes to new opportunities, I’ve reached out to make my connections with people deeper, I’ve learned that my comfort zone only exists in my mind, I’ve dug deep, and got in tune with myself and my life. And I’ve lived every single day, and every single moment knowing that I am going to miss it one day.

So, farewell early 20’s!

25, and the next 5 years have a lot to live up to, but I am planning on continuing the rest of my life like I am currently living in my “good old days.”  And that alone, makes me so excited for the adventure, growth, and memories they will bring.

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Onto the next adventure, Wren

Creating a Balanced Life from an Extroverted Empath

IMG_3285Finding balance in my life has been something I’ve struggled with for years, and I know I am not alone. A lot of us get overwhelmed with too many things to accomplish, too many people to devote our time to, too many goals that seem out of reach, and somehow there is never enough time to do it all. If our lives feel off balanced, we may experience anxiety, not feeling good enough for our loved ones, disappointed in ourselves, not sleeping or eating (or forgetting to) and putting important things on the back burner. And when this constantly happens, our mental health starts to take a downfall.

As an extroverted empath myself, finding balance is something that doesn’t come easy to me, but it is crucial if I want to keep myself sane and my mental health in tact. The extroverted part of me absorbs energy from going to places with groups of people, spending time with others, or even just calling or texting a friend or family member to interact.IMG_3282The empath part of me absorbs energies from outside sources or other people like my bloodstream absorbs my morning caffeine.  And if I am around any energy that isn’t compatible with my own at the moment, I start to feel exhausted and drained. I’ve always known I was a highly sensitive person, in fact EVERYTHING about me is sensitive: my emotions, my personality, even my skin. But I didn’t notice how sensitive I was to the energies around me until about a year ago and have since learned how much of an empath I am.IMG_3287.JPGSince then, I have accepted my personality traits and have learned to find a balance between the extroverted and the empathetic side of me. These two traits are polar opposite, and if I can find a way around them and continue balance throughout my life, I believe you can to.

  • Priorities should take most of your energy, but not all of it.

Everyone has different priorities in life. Maybe you’re working towards becoming the next CEO of a big company, maybe you are in the middle of a weight loss journey, or maybe you are trying to be the best house wife and soccer mom there ever was. Whatever you’re working towards, keep working towards it. You’re doing great! However, just because you have a priority, doesn’t mean that you should put all of your time and energy towards that one thing. If all of your time and energy is only directed towards one thing, the other parts of your life will start to crumble.

Take the CEO for example. This guy still has a family, friends, a body that needs food and sleep, a home that needs to be cared for, and a brain that will go insane if it is overworked. When all of his focus and energy is on working towards that position, it will be difficult for him to find balance in other areas of his life. He may start to lose his relationships with friends and family, his living space will always feel messy, and he may experience panic attacks, insomnia, or weight gain. Even though he will have the euphoric feeling of all of his hard work paying off (IF and WHEN) he becomes the CEO, his life will become out of order, and always feel imbalanced. Simply reminding yourself that priorities should take up most of your time and energy, but not all of it will help you find a healthy balance.IMG_3281.JPG

  • Do what you’re doing, while you are doing it.

This one may sound a little confusing, but it is actually pretty straightforward. I’ll start with a few examples. Most of you go to a place that you call work, this place is where you work. You go to a place called the gas station, this is where you get gas. You go to the gym, this is where you exercise. You go to a family dinner at your grandparents, this is where you eat dinner and spend time with family. You hangout with friends, to socialize and have fun. Pretty simple right?

The problems occur when you start doing other things other than the thing that you are doing. When you start putting your focus towards other responsibilities other than the one you are focusing on, things become messy and imbalanced. When you are at work, your focus should be on work, not on the vacation that you are planning next year. When you are at the gas station or the gym, your focus should be completely on the task that you are there to do. When you are spending time with family and friends, you should focus on being presently with them, not answering work emails and phone calls, scrolling through social media, connecting with others who are not there, etc.

I know it’s easier said than done, and this one will take practice, but if you truly want to feel balanced- stay in the moment and put your focus on the task that you’re doing while you’re doing it. Overall, this will help you feel more balanced, fulfilled, and accomplished.

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  • Plan ahead. (emotionally)

A lot of you may look at that first word and want to skip right over this tip. I know planning ahead doesn’t come naturally to some of you, but keep reading along because I am not talking about “five year plans” or “itineraries and timelines for your week.” I am talking about emotionally planning ahead. As an empath, this step is very important in keeping myself sane. And even if you aren’t an empath yourself, I think this little trick can help you too.

I’ll use my sensitive little self as the example here. When I emotionally prepare myself for a future event, I get less overwhelmed and anxious when the event actually happens. If I know I am going to Vegas with friends for the weekend, I can mentally prepare myself to be surrounded by large groups of people, loud noises, a lot of traffic, and a night of no sleep. About a week prior, I will stop communicating with a lot of different personality types, and push my errands and social gatherings back a week to save my emotional energy for the weekend.

If I emotionally prepare myself to spend the whole night alone with my dog and my favorite Netflix series, I can prepare myself to not get stir crazy, unmotivated, or lonely. I will put my focus on being alone, practice new hobbies, and enjoy the peace and quiet. Emotionally preparing ahead is nothing like physically planning ahead, it’s more a mind trick that I’ve learned how to subconsciously teach myself over the years. It takes practice, but I think preparing for the energy that will soon be around us can prepare us from negatively absorbing it, or getting exhausted from it.

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  • Learn how to say no.

Who else struggles with turning down opportunities or invitations? As an extroverted person myself, I have a large group of close family and friends and my weeks are usually filled with many different social gatherings. I used to never say no to an invitation, to anyone in need of help, or to staying extra hours at work. I always covered shifts, showed up to gatherings, and always replied with a YES, even when I didn’t really feel like attending (or working an extra 10 hours a week). Even though this brought me many great people and opportunities into my life, I  eventually wore myself thin.

After a while of living this way, I learned that I had no time or energy left to focus on myself. And in the midst of it all, I became exhausted, I became depressed, and I became lost. Who was I? What did I enjoy doing? What were my hobbies? The extroverted side of me felt this desperate need to always be surrounded by others, but the empath part of me was drowning, and begging for some time to decompress from the constant variety of energies that I constantly surrounded myself with.

It wasn’t until I learned how to say no, that I finally found a healthy balance of social time, and alone time. I have now learned where my exhaustion point is and even though most invitations and opportunities sound exciting and fun, I have no problem with turning a few of them down- For my mental sanity and to keep my life feeling balanced.

If I have a long, exhausting day at work, and a friend asks me to get dinner, I simply reply with a “no, a different day?” and look forward to my quiet house with no other energy filling the space besides my own. Plus, moving dinner to a different day gives me time to emotionally plan ahead. 😉 Empath or not, I think it is crucial for all of us to be alone with our own thoughts and energy every once in a while, to learn about the person we are, and what we enjoy, without the influence or energies of others.

Side note: to keep your alone time consistent, pick a place or a time of day that you always spend alone. Example: the gym, your morning coffee, your bath tub, dinner on Thursday nights, your yoga mat, a evening walk every Sunday, etc. (And remember do what you’re doing, while you’re doing it. This is your ALONE time, stay disconnected from your phone, so you can connect with yourself.)

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  • Remember, there is enough time

When your life start to feel imbalanced, for whatever reason it does, most of us always seem to say the same or similar excuses of “I am soooo busy.” or “There is just not enough time.” “I can’t keep up..” Sound familiar? I know we’re all guilty of it.

There is nothing wrong with being busy or having a lot going on, but guess what? There is always enough time. You have just as much time in a day as Beyonce. We all do. Stop blaming your sad imbalanced life on the time you don’t have. Not only is this an unhealthy way of thinking, it is also going to cause anxiety and make you feel overwhelmed about all of the time you’ve wasted, or the “not enough” you have left.

Instead, learn to prioritize and manage your time. Maybe you need to buy a calendar, maybe you need to wake up 2 hours earlier, maybe you need to spend less time on your video game, and more time with your parents. Or maybe, like me, you need to learn to say no, and reschedule with loved ones, or take a day off from work. Whatever you need to do, do it. Just please stop telling yourself there isn’t enough time, because eventually you’ll start believing it. And who wants to spend their time worrying about not having enough time? Prioritize and work for that balance.

I promise you, there is always enough time.IMG_3276.JPGAnd with that, I wish you all a more balanced and fulfilling life.

Onto the next adventure, Wren

 

 

 

You are not a sad story

Hi friends! It’s been a while since I posted. A WHOLE MONTH. That makes me sad, but it also makes me realize how busy I have been. Between wedding season, Derek being in school full time, the change of seasons, a few changes to family life, and our friend Jessica moving in with us, life has been a little crazy lately.

Somewhere in all of this craziness, I decided to sit down at my computer last week and make this little video as a little reminder of that life is so so good. Just this year, I’ve watched family and friends go through traumatic experiences, broken hearts, losing family members, drug and alcohol abuse, divorce, infertility, eating disorders, unemployment, sexual abuse, anxiety and depression.

Even though I haven’t personally experienced most of the things mentioned above, I still struggle. I’ve had more dark days in the last year than I have had in a very long time. Some of them caused by the growing pains of learning to love the person I am, some of them caused by accepting my sensitivity and emotions, but most of them caused by feeling helpless to my loved ones around me.

We all have dark days, and I wanted to make this little video to remind myself, and whoever else needs it, that life is beautiful. You are not a sad story. You are so much more than your body, your bad thoughts, your trauma, and your experiences. Your life is meant to be lived, to be beautiful, to make you happy and proud. Do whatever it takes to make it that way. And know that I am cheering you on!

Onto the next adventure, Wren

 

Soul mates, and the search to find them

Soul mate:

The one person who is the perfect match. The perfect fit. The person who fills in your empty spaces and fits into your life like a perfect puzzle piece. The one person who is destined to be yours. Who at one point in time, you’ll meet and you’ll think “Oh, it’s you.  Here you are. You’re the one.”

IMG_0626Do you believe in such a thing? For some reason I’ve had a lot of conversations lately regarding soul mates and I have had a lot of different opinions and feedback on them. Some say there is no such thing; you fall in love when you’re ready for commitment with someone who is also ready, shares similar interests, and who you have a mutual attraction with. This could be anyone, it might last forever, and it might not-and that’s that.7Others say there’s only one person, it might take a life time to find them or you may never find them, but when you finally do, you’ll know. You are complete, you’ve found your perfect fit, your ONLY match and you’ll live life by their side for the rest of your days. They are your soul mate, and even though there are billions of other souls in the world, this is the only one that can complete you. You two were destined to be in each other’s lives, to fall in love, to complete the other.810IMG_E0622Hearing so many different theories has left me to figuring out my personal opinion and feelings on the matter. And in good ol’ Wren fashion, I decided to share mine. Because what if I told you, I believe in neither of the above theories?

Hold on tight, it’s about to get deep.

We all have bodies, but I believe we’re so much more than just our bodies. Just like our bodies, we all have souls that are unique and only our’s. Our souls aren’t made up of cells and atoms and body parts, they are made up of energy, light, and stardust. And when our brains (bodies) react to situations, things, and especially people, our souls react too.IMG_0624When I walk into a room and feel a certain energy, when I listen to certain songs, try new things, or when I am surrounded by certain people, my soul reacts (positively or negatively). Which brings me back to my soul mate theory.IMG_0625I believe in soul mates. However, I do not believe in the theory of only having one soul mate. I think we will all have many soul mates, some more than other’s, but everyone has more than one. Our blood related family members become our soul mates the day we are born. And even though we may feel like we don’t always need them, or aren’t always on the same page, our souls will always have a connection with them. In apart from family members, I believe we have many different soul mates. We have our romantic soul mates, musical taste soul mates, travel soul mates, our once a week coffee soul mates, our dance party soul mates, our cry on the shoulder soul mates, etc.IMG_0621You see, in my opinion, the idea of soul mates doesn’t mean that there is only one soul out there that completes us, because I think our souls need many souls to feel complete. Every once in a while, when you’re not looking for it, you’ll meet someone and think “wow I need you in my life at this time, you fill in my empty spaces, you complete me.” They will become one of your soul mates, and good news!! this will continue happening through out your life.IMG_E0623Our souls live off of connection and energy, but just like our brains, our souls are ever changing and growing. Which means there will be soul mates who may drift away from us, grow apart, or be replaced. These people just don’t complete you anymore, or they never did. And that’s okay, because you have a billion of more souls to connect with and you have your whole life to find them.9We’re all searching for happiness, to feel whole, to feel connected in this world. One of the most important things we can do to accomplish this, is to surround ourselves with the people who complete us, who give us happiness highs, who we call our best friends, our people, our family, our soul mates. I’ve found mine and I have never felt more complete.

 

I hope you all find your’s.

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Onto the next adventure, Wren

100th post!- And Why I Blog

image1Wow guys! Here it is in all of it’s glory. My 100th blog post on The Stellar Stories (formerly Dur-stellar-spectacular). As most of my readers know, my blog isn’t the typical “Utah blog”. When ever a new friend or stranger and I exchange Instagram accounts they see my blog link and say “oh you blog?!” Yes, I know its cliche to have a blog, but the truth is, I am not a cliche blogger.  Unlike most “Utah Bloggers” I am not too interested in fashion or beauty, I’ve never even posted an outfit of the day post or a hair tutorial. I am not very tech savy, and I don’t have any fancy camera equipment. My photos are all taken on my phone, or my 3 year old camera. And even though I love social media, I have never cared too much about my follwoing. I barely have 1,000 followers on Instagram.

I do not make money from this little website I’ve created, I don’t have sponsors or paid partnerships. I honestly admire the bloggers that make money from it, but I’ve never cared to. Yeah, some days I think “wow, that would be nice to take pretty photos and write while making money,” but then I remember, that is not the reason I started blogging and that is not why I do it.image1 (1).jpeg

“So, why do you even blog then?”…

I’ve been writing for as long as I can remember. I kept a journal my whole life up until high school. I have a box full of essays, stories, and poems I’ve wrote over the years. In about 2008, I learned there was such thing as spilling my thoughts to the internet instead of writing them all down. And I started writing to my Tumblr instead of my journals. I loved the privacy of blogging, and having the choice to publish my thoughts, or keep them private. I loved relating to others’ thoughts and being able to share them to my own page. And I also loved being able to go back to my mind at a certain time with just the click of my mouse. I still occasionally log into my Tumblr, here is the link if you’re interested-  http://thisnever-ending-story.tumblr.com/

One day, I grew out of writing. And sadly, I stopped. I stopped writing on paper, I stopped writing on Tumblr. I found other hobbies to pass my time including taking and editing photos and posting them on the new app that everyone had called Instagram. I was a senior in high school when Instagram came out, and even though most of my friends liked showing off their outfits, or beauty routine on their Instagrams, I loved the idea of sharing my thoughts in the captions. (I downloaded twitter for this reason, but the character limit just wasn’t doing it for me.)

In about 2013, I realized that I missed writing. Like really writing, not just photo captions or tweets. I thought to myself, I will start journaling again, but this time-online. I had a blog called “Alwaysareason” for a year or two, which was dedicated strictly my thoughts, my poetry, and the things that kept me up at night.  It definitely helped my love for writing, but my love for pictures was getting out of control. Plus, there was a new rule where if you posted more than one photo a day on Instagram, you weren’t cool. Because NO ONE wanted to see your face or life more than once a day. 😉

image3At the beginning of 2016, I decided to just go all in and start a new blog. I decided I would write about my thoughts, my favorite hobbies, and my beautiful life that I shared with my new husband; including our marriage, home, and travels. I would also post all of the photos and videos that documented this beautiful, unperfect life of mine. Dur-stellar-spectacular was created.

At this time, there were “Utah bloggers” on Instagram, and even though I would find myself occasionally comparing my photos or Instagram followers to their’s, I would remind myself that I wasn’t blogging to make a career out of it. It’s not what I wanted to do as a career. I am blogging because I love to write, I love to take photos, and I love to look back on certain times in my life.

2 1/2 years and a name change later, here we are. I have almost every single week of the last 2 1/2 years of my life documented in one place. With a click of a button, I can look back at the great moments, like our first week with Harvey, or remodeling our Dursteler Abode, and also the hard ones, like leaving our students in China.

And that is why I do it.

image2I blog for my husband. I blog for our future babies. I blog for the friends, family, and strangers who are interested in what we’re up to next. And most of all, I blog for myself. It’s my little outlet. It keeps me creative. It helps me realize how blessed I truly am to be living this life of mine.

I probably won’t ever have perfect photos on here, I probably won’t ever blog a post about my outfit that I wore that day, or have sponsors reaching out to be featured. But I promise you that when the whole “Instagram/blogger” thing dies, I will still be writing, taking photos, and somehow documenting it in one place.

Onto the next adventure, Wren